Where was I?
As I mentioned in my last blog entry, I've just returned from a trip to Iceland. I sent off my transparencies for development on Wednesday and Keith the Postie duly brought me back my latest images on Friday. A number of things occurred to me whilst looking at my new images, chief amongst them the question, how can a photograph that I have taken transport me to somewhere that is somehow more than the place that I photographed? But first a digression...
Whilst I've been enjoying experimenting with that new-fangled digibal (sic) phonography I must admit that one aspect of it leaves me feeling (perversely?) dissatisfied; namely, its immediacy. I know, I know; the instant feedback is one of the great things about digital! It speeds up the learning process and helps people to correct mistakes there and then that might otherwise have resulted in a fruitless expedition. But, but!... I like the butterflies in the pit of my stomach feeling of anticipation that I get when I send off some film. The feeling returns, redoubled, when the postie brings me some shiny new images. I experience a heady mixture of high anxiety and the overwhelming desire to rip open the packet to see whether I have any "bastards" or whether I've cocked them all up. The delay between making an image and seeing it, something that is inherent in using film, has once again brought a frisson of excitement and, I'll admit, a certain smugness that I don't feel the need for the instant gratification open to users of digital. Psychologists talk about the habit of delayed gratification – the ability to wait in order to obtain something that one wants – as a sign of sound mental health. I suppose most people would experience this as the habit of leaving their favourite portion of a meal until last; not eating the bacon or chips until you've stuffed down the healthy green bits that you don't really like. If delayed gratification is good then the reverse is surely a sign of dire problems. What a state all those fans of digital must be in! ;-)
Anyway, back to my point... When I opened the packet there were the usual mix of failures (3), adequates (10), successes (10) and very successful images (just 2). (Images in this latter category are sometimes also known as "bastards", though strictly speaking I feel that this classification can only be awarded by a committee of my peers and it is presumptuous of me to classify my own images in this way!) But, what makes these latter two images so special to me?
There are numerous reasons why an image might resonate strongly with the photographer that made it, and most of these might also be shared by an audience. But some belong uniquely to the individual photographer; the image may resonate simply because it reminds them of the time and place when they made the image or because it reminds them of particular difficulties encountered during its making or because they feel it to be a great artistic or technical success. As a practicing photographer these reasons all come quickly to mind but another one is, I think, a little less obvious: it may resonate because it surprises them. The two images from Iceland that I classed as "very successful" also fall into the category of images that surprise me.
I've been struggling to think why this is. It's not simply that they came out better than I expected (that would only make them at the high end of the "success" category) and it's not simply that the image looks different from the reality; that happens to an extent every time anyone makes a photograph. Looking at them I was taken to places that were somehow different from the physical locations. Even though I had been there, the place in the image was somehow somewhere else, somehow different and/or more than what I had expected. Obviously the image was transcribed by light and hence is bound to the point of its creation but I almost got the feeling, "Where was I when this was made?" I don't think that this dislocation is just due to the transformation of perspective or colour. As I wrote above, these are the commonplace transformations present in every photograph that I make and I'm used to them. I suspect that the answer to "Where was I?" is "there!" but that the most important part of the creative decisions in these cases were made by my subconscious. So, although I performed all the physical tasks necessary to make the image, my conscious mind didn't register the significance of why I was striving for the composition or even fully realise how the final image would look.
Looking back at the few older images that I still like the one thing they seem to have in common is that they all surprised me when I first saw the film and that they still surprise me. I think that this quality of surprise might also be a more universal indicator of a successful image as the "surprising" images of mine have generally been the ones that have received the greatest acclaim. A conversation I had with Eddie Ephraums, during work on my last book, seems to support this theory. He was describing the work of another photographer and said that although the images amazed him they didn't surprise him and consequently he felt that there was a limit on his appreciation of the work.
I suppose that the quality of surprise might merely be another way of talking about the quality of mystery that I discuss in Landscape Beyond. But I also wonder if it might relate to something that Ben Maddow wrote in Weston, His Life;
But photographs become something more when they are a record of the interaction of photographer and subject. It is arguable that all great photographs... have this quality – that what we see, what we respond to, is the dialogue between subject and artist, unspoken, unspeakable.
On a superficial level what we're attracted to in a photograph is the subject, and in many images this is all there is to connect to. We might like or dislike an image because of something trivial, like the dominant colour, but when we really love (or hate) an image it is the photographer's vision of the subject that we are responding to. Surely the vision of a(nother) photographer can only really grip us when it surprises us; when it makes us see something as if for the first time, when it makes us see in a new or different way. The image can amaze us with its technical quality, masterful use of composition or the way in which the photographer has captured a moment of beautiful light but these factors will eventually pall. Perhaps only surprise, in some senses the most evanescent of emotions, will endow an image with lasting appeal.
